This blog post is meant to contain happy memories, thoughts, and emotions but there will always be times that you just had to let your negative emotions out and blurt it all out here instead of creating drama on Facebook, Twitter or Instagram.
Life is not perfect. It isn’t supposed to be filled with flowers and romantic music while you and your partner dine in a luxurious restaurant. Life is just supposed to be simple. But it isn’t. And it will never be.
Time and again, here I am blurting stupid things. My sight is blurry and my senses are failing me. Colds, headache, tootache and every fiber of my being hurts and my partner should have been doing what partners do best- and that’s taking care of their sick other half. But here I am all alone. I know he has work and it is his priority but his huge ego is making it impossible for him to even send a simple text message to ask me how I am doing right now. Oh well, I guess it’s true that you can’t get everything you want. It’s a sad, sad fact I have to live with.
Last night and earlier this morning I had the nerve-wracking realization that I have been focusing my life too much on my partner’s wants that I completely forgot to make myself truly happy. I actually wanted to go to work because I need the money to buy a gift for our upcoming anniversary but I chose not to because I was not really feeling well and I am too tired of pleasing him just because I am afraid of losing him.
I guess I already lost him. Or better yet, I think what’s truly best is that I lose him forever. Because I don’t need someone who isn’t man enough to let go of his pride for his partner.
